I'm bored..a little lazy..and there's a debate going on in my head right now..- papasok ba'ko o hindi. I'm really not in the mood for school today.puyat ako.my eyes are heavy..i feel so ugly.

I just finished the movie "the tiger and the snow".for me it's the greatest love story I've seen.i don't regret kung absent ako sa school.mas marami ako natutunan sa pinanood ko.

I really really adore roberto benigni!and nicoletta braschi..she's so beautiful!

I've first seen benigni in PINOCcHIO, and LA VITA E BELLA,my all time favrit movie.it was about the holocaust.ngayon naman, I fell in love with THE TIGER AND THE SNOW, about naman sa war sa middle east. Benigni's a genius.nagagawa nyang gawing komedya ang trahedya. Ang trahedya nagiging komedya. nagpapatawa siya pero maiiyak ka..and at the end of the story there's always a miracle! I really love him!

Yours,

Lanie

I sang "panunumpa" in the church this afternoon.it was ate nora and kuya nat's wedding. Prelim exam namin ýun sa theology but I chose to come sa wedding kaysa mag-exam.and I beliv dat's a good decision. If I die later or tomorrow, I'll die with a smile on my face, or else regretful dahil mas pinili ko ýung true or false o multiple choice or explain in essay.haha! 

I think I sang it the "cute" way, not the beautiful way cos I was really nervous.they were all listening and smiling at  me while I was singin and that makes me feel really good and a less tense. Mrs palma played the piano for me.

Well it feels great to sing in weddings, but given an chance I'd love to sing in funerals, too!

Yours,

Classic movies and pinag-tripan ko the entire day.buti na lang walang klase,

I've watched "wuthering heights", emily bronte's novel. I have the book kaso hindi ko natagalan basahin. My god the words are too profound, poetic and prosaic and elegiac..mundane.. disturbing ..whatever or however you wish to call it.i found myself dumb with the book and not able to go on anymore.buti na lang I found the movie version ng book! At mas naunawaan ko siya. it's a scary movie. I wish a Heathcliff would love me, too. Or should I say I wish a man would love me the way Heathcliff did for Cathy.can't help but hate cathy.maybe because somehow I find myself in her. Just like Blanche! They're just the same! The only difference is cathy's more beautiful and younger and loved. But both girls believe they have a beautiful mind! Haha.. just like I do.

This movie also reminds me of hitchcock's Rebecca. Well of course, rebecca is a very great film compared to wuthering heights! Does it mean to say Daphne de murier is a better writer than emily bronte? What do you think?

After wuthring heights I watched "cat on a hot tin roof". My first time to see elizabeth taylor act. Indeed she's very very beautiful! In the film, she's a martyr. If I were maggie I surely will not be able to take all of Bricks insults and rude manners.. although yes he's so handsome, but he's a drunkard and a useless man. cats don't suffer. They don't know pain. They only die and live again and again.i wish I'm a cat.

You know I believe my brain works better than my heart. reason has always been powerful over my feelings. If my boyfriend or husband or some man would treat me as cruel as Brick was on Maggie, I'll dump him as soon as I'm obliged to do so! I'll abandon him entirely if he tells me "go find another man!" or if he says "I'm a cat on a hot tin roof!". I will not say "but LANIE THE CAT IS ALIVE! I'M ALIVE!". Instead I'll tell him "LANIE THE CAT WILL EAT YOU DIRTY RAT!" hehe

"MENDICACY" – that was Brick and Big Daddy's topic. ..how they hated lies.. how everything was filled with lies.. somehow I was convinced that Brick's a homosexual. He loves Skipper so much more than his own wife!

Then I watched another movie, "CRY WOLF" .  I thought it was a comedy. I realized it's a suspenseful story.

I wish I'd be like Sandra, - having steady eyes whenever she speaks with somebody. I can't look at people's eyes whenever I'm talking with them. But starting tomorrow I'll try.

Well I really thought mark's laboratory was a place where he tortures his rivals. But I was wrong. I'm also surprised bout myself not having felt a little boredom. What a very fine day! The finest perhaps.

Yours,

lanie

I've just finished watching "a street car named desire." I realized what a fine actress Vivien leigh was! She's Blanche in the movie based on Tenesse Williams'play. Poor blance..nabaliw sya. I'm glad I've watched the film. I realized I must not over-imagine things and daydream and expect too much.. I realized how important it is to live in reality and with just a little magic. For it would be far too painful if none of your expectations happen.

Sa kabuuan ng pelikula, I found myself hoping Stanley would show a little compassion for blanche. In was really excited 'bout the controversial scenes of blanche and Stanley in the movie's final minutes which wer said to call the attention of the board of censorship.but I was disappointed not see any erotic scene between them.i guess it was cut after the bottle was broken.

I can't help but admire the fine physique of marlon brando when he was younger. I've seen him at "the godfather" but I never expected he's a hunk in his youth.

The movie inspired me to write a poem. The title is "belle reve", French words which emans "beautiful dream". In tenessee williams' play, belle reve was the place where blanche grew up.

"Belle Reve"

Where is belle reve?

How does one get there?

How far is the place?

How high is the fare?

Where is belle reve?

Have you been there?

Do tress bear gold?

Are tears made of silver?

Where is belle reve?

Can anybody tell

If the road is steep

And don't mothers weep?

Where is belle reve?

I'm on my way

If I won't come back

I'm on my dreams.

I noticed that my mother has become Mrs. Dalloway. Oh she really love going to Union Square to buy flowers! I remember one afternoon she told me she wants to fill the house with flowers an dchristmas decors. Now there's a big Christmas tree in our terrace and she has put lavish decors on it. Pati ýung kisame nilagyan niya ng mga vines. Pero natutuwa akong Makita si nanay na masaya sa mga ginagawa niya. Legi syang excited magshopping sa kung saan may SALE.

Ako kaya when I grow old? I'm afraid I'll be bored with old age. Pero sabi nga sa Sophie's World, philosophers do not fear old age. Sana talaga maging philosopher ako, aside from being an architect. Sana makaakyat ako sa pinakatuktok ng fur ng rabbit!

Yours,

Lanie

After class I went to bum's house. We watched tarantino's "reservoir dogs". Gore! Especially when the cop's ear was cut off! Tim Roth, my dear legend of 1900 was there! I really love him as I adore john malkovich and Roberto benigni! I'll marry any of them!

Bum gave me another book – "CATCHER IN THE RYE". I said I hate the cover..it's cheap. So he said I was judging a book by its cover! then we ate at Greenwich city mol. I bought an fhm mag feat. ariani. kelan kaya ako magiging cover girl?i'm serious.

Sa bahay, we browsed my scrapbook.pinagtawanan ang aking valedictory address. Then he was surprised nang makita nya ang napreserve kong sketch when I was only 5 years old! I was a picture of a happy family. Çan't believe ganun ako magdrawing noon. Bum said it's like Malang's artwork.

Yours,

lanie

I want to put a closure to this problem of mine. Starting tomorrow I will have better self-control. I should have done this earlier. Starting tomorrow I'll do my best to be wise and practical and contented. They say contentment is happiness. I never believed in that.. but this time, i'd love to,

Yours, lanie

Kanina lang nanood ako ng pelikulang " the big white". It is a great love story that's really inspiring.. I could say Margaret is sooooo lucky for having a husband (robin Williams) who's willing to sacrifice everything and go beyond the limits for her sake! It's so funny and a little yucky..yucky lalo na 'yung pinakit 'yung corpse ng lalaki after it was devoured by wolves.. funny was margaret's tourette syndomr when she said " fuck up fuck up fuck up!"… tourette syndrome – I guess it's the most entertaining and hilarious disorder.

Sometimes I ask fate why the hell I was born here. Why I'm a Filipino and not an American or Spanish? Why I am asian? Why not European or Australian? Why I'm not as fair as kate blanchett? Why I am not blonde or with blue eyes? Why I speak tagalog and not French or Italian? Why I was born in a place where there's no snow so I could wear coats and boots too.. so our house has a fireplace.. so I put chimneys in houses.. so I play with other kids with snow balls.

But after I've watched the movie HOTEL RWANDA, I suddenly found myself thankful about being a morena. What if fate chose Rwanda to be my home? Or poso Indonesia as my hometown? What if I'm one of the cockroaches in the movie whose lives were not thought to be significant?.. no more whys from now on. anyway, I have boots.

Yours,

Lanie

Dear nene Pimentel,

I'll never see you in 2010.

I'll never forget what you did.

I hate you and your foolish pride.

I hate you and your eyebags! Your sons!daughters, grandchildren and all within your bloodline will forever have big flabby disgusting EYEBAGS! Hehe

Yours,

Toothfairy